It’s Consuming

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Never imagined I’d be here at 40 weeks, 4 days pregnant.

I’m closer to 41 weeks than 40 weeks.

It’s really hard for me to wrap my head around it.

Every night when I go to bed, I keep thinking I’ll wake up in the middle of the night with contractions.

So far, every morning, I’ve woken up with nothing.

And truth be told.  I’m sooooooo bored.

I’m enjoying our family time and we’ve done a lot of movie watching.  The boys are obsessed with Toy Story and Rio right now.

We haven’t missed a single Ranger game on TV.

But there are so many things I want to do but don’t have enough energy to do them.  Not only that, but the waiting game for this baby girl is consuming me.  I can’t really think of anything else.

Yesterday, my friend, Audrey, called me in the morning and offered to walk with me.  Perfect idea!

I strapped these on….

and met Audrey at the mall to do some serious walking.  It was so great to catch up with her!

But, the walking didn’t do anything.

On the way home, Jeff and I decided to order some thai food.  I ordered these Pad Thai Noodles extra spicy!  I don’t even like spicy food much but was totally willing to try it out.

Guess what?  It didn’t do anything other than make my mouth hot.

I’ve been trying to stay busy with laundry, cleaning house, and organizing, but I’m running out of things to do.  You can only vacuum, sweep, and pick up toys so many times.

Bottom line is I can’t get my mind off of it and it’s driving me a little nuts.

We have amazing, supportive, and caring parents, who are calling me twice a day just to check-in with me.  I’m so thankful they care so much, but it’s just another reminder.

I know I am truly blessed to even be able to carry a child to my due date when there are so many women who have had to leave their babies in the hospital NICU because they were born too early.  I know those women would love to trade places with me.

I’m truly not complaining.  I’m not miserable.  I’m still thankful to feel her movements inside of me.

It’s just the last thing I expected to happen when I first learned our due date at that first sonogram.  He said August 1st.

I know it’s just a date and babies are on their own schedules.  I also know it’s all in His plan and on His timing.

His plan is, thankfully, always better than the one I could have written anyway.

Should I still be pregnant on Tuesday, I have an appointment at the birthing center to check on the baby and do a stress test to make sure she’s still ok in there.  Hopefully I will know more after that.  The best case scenario is to show up at the birthing center before then and have a baby so I won’t even need my appointment.

Thanks for all of your thoughts and prayers.  I can’t thank you enough.

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